Happy ending...

 It has been a long long time...

Since I last saw your face..

I don't want to think of it..

But I know it too well to erase.

What was it like,

To break my broken heart to pieces..

After you had tended it,

For a while..

You had taped it, glued it

Held it close..

Before, alas,dropping it

And crushing it under your toe..

Oh! If only I hadn't 

Pulled my mask down..

If only I had 

Looked at you and simply walked on..

If I turned away

And had never looked around..

Found another

Or found no one at all...

It may have been better

But how was I to know?

That you are not my happy ending....

Today,

I see you happy and smiling

Miles away...

Into the eyes of another

Everyday...

Are you happy,

Is it better this way...

Do you know me,

Or am I forgotten anyway...

Still lurking in some corner,

Or stuffed into a box thrown away..

Still the same,

Or have you changed..

Satisfied,

Unfazed and unchanged..

You may have got yours,

But I only know..

I still have to find my happy ending...