The one man who truly loved me...

There was a day,

Much like today.

Only the sun was brighter,

'Cos you were there.

I would have talked to you,

A million times by now.

You would have said- Hang on, honey,

I'm here, don't worry, you carry on.

You were there for every new year,

And every mean little halloween.

Every sports day, birthday, christmas,

In a tattered coat and jeans.

I laughed a little louder those days,

I fell down often without a fear.

But now I catch my breath before it goes in,

To check for wisps of hurt in there.

Everybody seems to have moved on,

Even all rooms except the hall.

Where your picture hangs in the center,

Of a patchy, lavender wall.

But there's still some trace of you,

Lurking in my heart somewhere.

There,

Right where you always were.

And I know this for sure,

That you'll also,

Ever always be right there.

And this stupid heart,

It still waits at the doorstep.

Hoping that you would come by.

Saying- It was a bit rough in there.

But I am here,

Now I am fine.

I laugh and cry at the same time,

Guess only you could have done that to me.

As I sit alone and cold remembering now,

The one man who truly loved me.

The Happy Song!!

A slice of a cake,

And a sip of coffee.

Life is good when 

You just think happy.

All the pieces finally fall in place.

Don't sweat it.

Let's be happy !!

There is a spring in my walk,

I feed a cute doggy.

Throw back the curtain,

Dump all things crappy.

Kick a stone,

Take a swirl,

Dance down an alley.

Have some faith,

Stand up straight,

Smile,

Don't be tacky.

Reasons will always have some reasons,

Which you won't know.

Drop it.

Just be happy !!

Is it 'my' life ?

Life is beautiful^^...It is just a bit complicated.

(^^= conditions apply! )

 The funny thing is that 'people' are the best and the worst thing that can happen to us. Situations in life are neither good nor bad, take it from me! It is the other people in our life (apart from our own selves, I mean) that make them so for us.

Take any situation.If we are happy, it is because of 'someone'. If we are sad, there is again 'someone' responsible for it. Either by being there, or by not being there. Sometimes by saying something, something by not saying anything... it is only and only people in our lives or people who have touched our lives in some way or the other, who get to decide the exact point in the myriad of human emotions, where we get to stand and which we get to experience.

Sometimes, I ask myself. Is it fair? If this is our life, we should be deciding what happens in it and what we make of it. But, that the good lord has apparently already written. If not that, then we should at least get to decide how we feel about what has happened and decide what we can do with it and how we will move on. But, more often than not, that too is decided by 'someone' else. Our decisions in life and our emotional states are but a reflection of what people tell or expect of us. So, the big question is what is it that is actually in our power in our lives?

Nothing.

'I' do not decide 'my' destiny, past, present, future, actions, emotions....... still this is 'my' life!

So, what is the whole point of existence?

Sometimes,after an extremely depressing day, I sit by myself after a couple of shots of bitter, sugarless cappuccino and find my over active mind lurking around in search of answers to questions like these.

I find many answers appearing in my head like an episode out of "Who wants to be a millionaire?".Only, I do not know if any of those options are correct because the sole source of all the mentioned options is my own mind and I have to consider the factor of personal bias! The mind sees and understands that what it already knows, what it has already seen or come across at some point...

So I stand here clueless of who I am,
what I am  and where I should be...
Unfaced by my purpose,
Not knowing my reason to be...

Answers will come. Because they always come. It is just a matter of having an eye out for them and having the will to wait for them to come.

So, here's me hoping to know them someday. Till then, learning to relish the utter chaos and confusion of 'my' life! :)